Truth be told, I didn't think motherhood would be this hard. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE LOVE LOVE my kids. I take pride in the fact that I nourish them and take care of them. But some days, my nerves are shot. I am averaging between 4-5 broken hours of sleep a night. I feel like a prisoner in my own home. It takes a toll on every aspect of life. Thankfully I have a wonderfully supportive husband, but some nights I find myself banishing him to the basement so we both aren't walking zombies. Life is hard for me right now. I know in the grand scheme of things, this is not the worst thing in the world that can happen to me, but right now IT IS! I want to be a good mom....and some days I feel like the worst one because I'm so tired and snapping at Maggie and being internally angry at Elliott for not sleeping. I can't help it--this is how I feel!
I promise my next post will be a little more upbeat! I LOVE my kids....and feel blessed to have them. Some day all they will want to do is sleep, and I'll be forcing them awake, right????
They are pretty cute though...
1 comment:
Elizabeth- you are AWESOME for being so honest about how hard it is to be a mom! after I had Jason, I was on a mission to tell EVERYONE that being a mom can really suck at times! of course you love your kiddos, of course you wouldn't change a thing, of course you are blessed and feel blessed. but, the reality is that those early weeks and months (and years?) are draining and difficult and sad at times and lonely and frustrating. I am glad you wrote about how things are REALLY going! you are helping me on my "mission" to encourage moms to talk about their own reality. for me, just hearing from other moms who had some hard times made MY hard times so much more bearable.
so, again, thank you! a new norm will eventually stabilize itself for you... in the meantime, keep on being real about it all! (oh- AND your kids are not just "pretty cute," they are SUPER SUPER cute!)
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